hated the heart feelings
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
great movie i watched, SPIRITED AWAY & HOWL'S MOVING CASTLE.
SPIRITED AWAY
HOWL'S MOVING CASTLE
those are a great movie which give me lots of inspiration, great story line and match my taste.
next movie to catch: princess mononoke and PONYO awesome!
my heart is having a weird bit, i wonder what make me got attracted to it? felt the mix feeling of sad and disappointment in the same time.
that feelings is really loosen my hand and mine; which make me felt really weak. it just cant bare to let it go, my heart just being so stubborn wont want to just let it go. my mine keep scolding it don't go for such a thing just let it go don't be so weak to loose your stand for that. don't ever surrender your self it will bring your pride down as a Shank Paul WK.
do you still remember how the name shank come from?. my heart replied with confusion: if i were to let it go something which indescribable will just haunt me, im to afraid to let it go.
with frustration my mine replied: don't break the contract of being shank that stand, don't be a such a weak fool.
felt really discouraged in my heart, thinking; am i that weak to let it go, i just cant bare to let it go i already felt to confirtable being around those thing. my mine get so pissed of yelling with a piss of mine; those morron around is just temporary they are just people who you won't be able to be with for ever, they will just move on and you will ended up losing your longing of being a hero.
replied miserbly my heart: im getting weaker those things just make me fell deeply for it.
my mine replied; don't make me say those word which i wouldn't want to say to you, it gonna break you down deeply.
with a haze of sorrow my heart replied: fine just say it just break me till i lost my existent, so i won't be able to feel those things again.
shouted out my mine: WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE? THINK THEY TREASURE YOU THERE"S NOTHING GREAT ABOUT YOU WEAKLING LITTLE HEART. MOST OF THE TIME IS ME AS A MINE WHO BACK YOUR ASS UP.
YOU PYUNY LITTLE PIECE OF BITTING MEAT THOSE THING DOESN;T GIVE A DAMN HEART FEELING ABOUT YOU. YOU JUST TEMPORARY NEEDED WHEN THOSE DONE WITH YOU U WILL BE DUNK INTO THE TRASH OF SORROW.
IN THE 1ST PLACE YOU ARE NOT EVEN WORTHY ENOUGH TO BE WITH THOSE THINGS, ALL YOU CAN DO IS JUST FEEL AND PRODUCE BLOOD, NOTHING PRACTICAL ABOUT YOU, YOU ARE TOTALLY USELESS TO THOSE THINGS, THOSE THINGS DOESN'T FEEL FOR YOU, INSTEAD IT USE YOU AS A TOOL TO TRIGGER FEELING OF HELPING, STOP BEING TOO GOOD HEARTED, YOU HAD BEEN SO GOOD HEARTED FOR VERY LONG, NOW YOU ARE JUST LEFT EXCILE BEHIND.
MY HEART started crying and felt really lost. stopped a bit and got tired.
i should just stay away from it. i shouldn't spend too much time on such things it gonna ruine my pride, i cannot be what i used to be.
look like i should find a place that i can float my self to loosen out everything, set location for tommorrow pasir beach i seems peacefull there no 1 will bother me haha^^
set a reminder here:
bring extra clothing, towel, remember to off my hand phone to keep me away.
need to rest and clear my heart, jesus please help me shower me with peace in mine and heart.
< >
today went to study with the fellow ITE, great dinner but that wont help.
filled with misery and confusion, mentally down and heart breaking, mood of drawing and storying it out really ruined by those disappointment and those truth.
i felt really a waste of time, where can i burried it?
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great movie i watched, SPIRITED AWAY & HOWL'S MOVING CASTLE.
SPIRITED AWAY
HOWL'S MOVING CASTLE
those are a great movie which give me lots of inspiration, great story line and match my taste.
next movie to catch: princess mononoke and PONYO awesome!
my heart is having a weird bit, i wonder what make me got attracted to it? felt the mix feeling of sad and disappointment in the same time.
that feelings is really loosen my hand and mine; which make me felt really weak. it just cant bare to let it go, my heart just being so stubborn wont want to just let it go. my mine keep scolding it don't go for such a thing just let it go don't be so weak to loose your stand for that. don't ever surrender your self it will bring your pride down as a Shank Paul WK.
do you still remember how the name shank come from?. my heart replied with confusion: if i were to let it go something which indescribable will just haunt me, im to afraid to let it go.
with frustration my mine replied: don't break the contract of being shank that stand, don't be a such a weak fool.
felt really discouraged in my heart, thinking; am i that weak to let it go, i just cant bare to let it go i already felt to confirtable being around those thing. my mine get so pissed of yelling with a piss of mine; those morron around is just temporary they are just people who you won't be able to be with for ever, they will just move on and you will ended up losing your longing of being a hero.
replied miserbly my heart: im getting weaker those things just make me fell deeply for it.
my mine replied; don't make me say those word which i wouldn't want to say to you, it gonna break you down deeply.
with a haze of sorrow my heart replied: fine just say it just break me till i lost my existent, so i won't be able to feel those things again.
shouted out my mine: WHO YOU THINK YOU ARE? THINK THEY TREASURE YOU THERE"S NOTHING GREAT ABOUT YOU WEAKLING LITTLE HEART. MOST OF THE TIME IS ME AS A MINE WHO BACK YOUR ASS UP.
YOU PYUNY LITTLE PIECE OF BITTING MEAT THOSE THING DOESN;T GIVE A DAMN HEART FEELING ABOUT YOU. YOU JUST TEMPORARY NEEDED WHEN THOSE DONE WITH YOU U WILL BE DUNK INTO THE TRASH OF SORROW.
IN THE 1ST PLACE YOU ARE NOT EVEN WORTHY ENOUGH TO BE WITH THOSE THINGS, ALL YOU CAN DO IS JUST FEEL AND PRODUCE BLOOD, NOTHING PRACTICAL ABOUT YOU, YOU ARE TOTALLY USELESS TO THOSE THINGS, THOSE THINGS DOESN'T FEEL FOR YOU, INSTEAD IT USE YOU AS A TOOL TO TRIGGER FEELING OF HELPING, STOP BEING TOO GOOD HEARTED, YOU HAD BEEN SO GOOD HEARTED FOR VERY LONG, NOW YOU ARE JUST LEFT EXCILE BEHIND.
MY HEART started crying and felt really lost. stopped a bit and got tired.
i should just stay away from it. i shouldn't spend too much time on such things it gonna ruine my pride, i cannot be what i used to be.
look like i should find a place that i can float my self to loosen out everything, set location for tommorrow pasir beach i seems peacefull there no 1 will bother me haha^^
set a reminder here:
bring extra clothing, towel, remember to off my hand phone to keep me away.
need to rest and clear my heart, jesus please help me shower me with peace in mine and heart.
< >
today went to study with the fellow ITE, great dinner but that wont help.
filled with misery and confusion, mentally down and heart breaking, mood of drawing and storying it out really ruined by those disappointment and those truth.
i felt really a waste of time, where can i burried it?
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