Friday, April 11, 2014
Friday, April 11, 2014
Just booked out yesterday, A-tec Stage 2 have finally over.
it's not an easy task to be done, freaking 5 days 5 nights.
feed insect in the forest, inhuman living condition, finally get to live like a human again.
Braves company didn't really get to fire much round on the Opfo, but no matter what we still helped to save ammo and resource for the country.
after everything the feeling of cleaning the arm and send back equipment with a feeling of no need to draw back the item, it kind of exciting.
think back actually im quite amazed that through those freedomless and tough moment to go through, i didn't expect i managed to get through it.
its a great memories, but negative point of view is i wasted 2 years and achieve nothing out of it which will benefit my qualification, feeling of getting reject again, it's not easy to face this kind of rejection, it make me speechless, make me feel damn lousy about myself, demoralizing and don't know how to face the world out there.
think about it now i get to experience life of a person who hide at home using their games to cover them self to hide away from reality, because due to the rejection of their dream. example a person aiming for his interest and not getting it, ended up their hidden no where without any aim in life.
i applied Poly weeks back, hoping for a chance to achieve what needed for me, atleast a diploma cert but got rejected. hmm...! how lousy i am, even if i were to get in. i don't know weather will i manage to get through it or not, some time i think about that:
my sis whatsapp me this image to show me, i didn't manage to read it on that day, because im in the Forest on a Atec Stage 2 mission, phone is not usable, not allowed and my phone break down.
im a Runner Aka Signaller of my platoon, that night i wished my signal set can coms to my sis to find out about my joint Poly Admission exercise. but it's impossible.
now i only feel like hiding away from reality and the world, but i don't know how?
months before i invested my money on gaming console like my PS4 and PS3 to be prepared for the worst scenario which is just happened, so i can just hide at home play game and not face the world, the world will always ask question like:"what have you been doing currently", "are you working or studying?", "whats your plan, now you already finishing army" or "what you currently doing, working studying?".
how am i going to answer those questions? even if i will to tell them that i working, what kind of work can i get in this era without atleast a dioplma cert.
people can say there's drop out who make it successful like: Bill Gates,Mark Zuckerberg, Steve Jobs and Gabe Newell. to me is actually a bullshit word to use. this world got more then a billion people, out of those amount of peoples, only this 4 made it, you can see the ration and even though they are drop out, but atleast they was qualified and got into their University which they used to be in.
how to buy that?
trapped in nothingness, now i wonder what can i do? feel like spend my year clearing my Class 2A and class 3, so to get myself a license of car and bigger bike, i been stucked with 2B for too long. everyone out there proceeded in life getting their class 2 and class 3 license while im still stucked with class 2b.
i wonder how should i clear my 2A?
i been playing back Brave Frontier due to getting a new discern phone:
managed to evolve my Selena into Ice goddess Selena 5 stars.
been trying to max all my level and evolve the rest.
my new phone is LG L7 2, ig got a very good shortcut key for screenshot like the quick memo things:
screenshot this 2 image in my phone.
think about those rejection, make wonder those people who decided to be a gangster, drug dealer, robber or scammer. its because they ended up no where, got rejected by success so they need to find ways to make it big. the world goes around, lousy people need to find way to get stronger, because the place they wanna be reject them so they have to get stronger else where or hide away from reality.
Just booked out yesterday, A-tec Stage 2 have finally over.
it's not an easy task to be done, freaking 5 days 5 nights.
feed insect in the forest, inhuman living condition, finally get to live like a human again.
Braves company didn't really get to fire much round on the Opfo, but no matter what we still helped to save ammo and resource for the country.
after everything the feeling of cleaning the arm and send back equipment with a feeling of no need to draw back the item, it kind of exciting.
think back actually im quite amazed that through those freedomless and tough moment to go through, i didn't expect i managed to get through it.
its a great memories, but negative point of view is i wasted 2 years and achieve nothing out of it which will benefit my qualification, feeling of getting reject again, it's not easy to face this kind of rejection, it make me speechless, make me feel damn lousy about myself, demoralizing and don't know how to face the world out there.
think about it now i get to experience life of a person who hide at home using their games to cover them self to hide away from reality, because due to the rejection of their dream. example a person aiming for his interest and not getting it, ended up their hidden no where without any aim in life.
i applied Poly weeks back, hoping for a chance to achieve what needed for me, atleast a diploma cert but got rejected. hmm...! how lousy i am, even if i were to get in. i don't know weather will i manage to get through it or not, some time i think about that:
im a Runner Aka Signaller of my platoon, that night i wished my signal set can coms to my sis to find out about my joint Poly Admission exercise. but it's impossible.
now i only feel like hiding away from reality and the world, but i don't know how?
months before i invested my money on gaming console like my PS4 and PS3 to be prepared for the worst scenario which is just happened, so i can just hide at home play game and not face the world, the world will always ask question like:"what have you been doing currently", "are you working or studying?", "whats your plan, now you already finishing army" or "what you currently doing, working studying?".
how am i going to answer those questions? even if i will to tell them that i working, what kind of work can i get in this era without atleast a dioplma cert.
people can say there's drop out who make it successful like: Bill Gates,Mark Zuckerberg, Steve Jobs and Gabe Newell. to me is actually a bullshit word to use. this world got more then a billion people, out of those amount of peoples, only this 4 made it, you can see the ration and even though they are drop out, but atleast they was qualified and got into their University which they used to be in.
how to buy that?
trapped in nothingness, now i wonder what can i do? feel like spend my year clearing my Class 2A and class 3, so to get myself a license of car and bigger bike, i been stucked with 2B for too long. everyone out there proceeded in life getting their class 2 and class 3 license while im still stucked with class 2b.
i wonder how should i clear my 2A?
i been playing back Brave Frontier due to getting a new discern phone:
managed to evolve my Selena into Ice goddess Selena 5 stars.
been trying to max all my level and evolve the rest.
my new phone is LG L7 2, ig got a very good shortcut key for screenshot like the quick memo things:
screenshot this 2 image in my phone.
think about those rejection, make wonder those people who decided to be a gangster, drug dealer, robber or scammer. its because they ended up no where, got rejected by success so they need to find ways to make it big. the world goes around, lousy people need to find way to get stronger, because the place they wanna be reject them so they have to get stronger else where or hide away from reality.
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