time for reflection.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
made this yesterday.
time passes by. every step i take; will develop memory. up time and down time, misery it most of the time, things happen to the extend where i just felt like running away.
to my knowledge running away is a coward; but some words of sense came from people:"is matter of weather are you dare enough to give up and run away?".
i was stucked with confusion, what he say is agreeable, so i should step down or step aside and not move. i am not in a place which i mend to be. im just in a place which i used to be; but happen to be on hold stucking there. now planning a escape rope which i can leave without affecting anyone around me. a friend of my also drop me a message:"just step away to seek for where you suppose to be, things can still goes on fine".
some how quite true, i don't have to think so much but just take an action to leave. i am suppose to be still some where to finish all my drawing and place my imagination into a piece of paper. i have to tell my self that: "things will turns out fine".
some time things happen may be a message to tell me, just like my chili plant. it no longer bare any chili, it reflected me. i started thinking through before that chili plant got removed away, i should give it some time for it to breath the last moment of air and sunlight. same goes for me; i should give my self sometime to clear my dept and done with my promises to people which i should.
in my group i felt meaningless. nothing much i can do, i should step down and retire.
maybe stepping aside there's something for me to seek, some hope and meaning for me to seek; rather then just stay there see things flow, im isn't at work any way.
suppose to do some drawing but ended up no time. find which day to burn off.
by the way today went to MACRITCHIE again with group member.
some photo upload, the rest in facebook. troublesome to wait and need to sleep early for school and my problem to be solve.
rough design on a flying bicycler:
just a random sketch out to wonder is it possible?
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made this yesterday.
time passes by. every step i take; will develop memory. up time and down time, misery it most of the time, things happen to the extend where i just felt like running away.
to my knowledge running away is a coward; but some words of sense came from people:"is matter of weather are you dare enough to give up and run away?".
i was stucked with confusion, what he say is agreeable, so i should step down or step aside and not move. i am not in a place which i mend to be. im just in a place which i used to be; but happen to be on hold stucking there. now planning a escape rope which i can leave without affecting anyone around me. a friend of my also drop me a message:"just step away to seek for where you suppose to be, things can still goes on fine".
some how quite true, i don't have to think so much but just take an action to leave. i am suppose to be still some where to finish all my drawing and place my imagination into a piece of paper. i have to tell my self that: "things will turns out fine".
some time things happen may be a message to tell me, just like my chili plant. it no longer bare any chili, it reflected me. i started thinking through before that chili plant got removed away, i should give it some time for it to breath the last moment of air and sunlight. same goes for me; i should give my self sometime to clear my dept and done with my promises to people which i should.
in my group i felt meaningless. nothing much i can do, i should step down and retire.
maybe stepping aside there's something for me to seek, some hope and meaning for me to seek; rather then just stay there see things flow, im isn't at work any way.
suppose to do some drawing but ended up no time. find which day to burn off.
by the way today went to MACRITCHIE again with group member.
some photo upload, the rest in facebook. troublesome to wait and need to sleep early for school and my problem to be solve.
rough design on a flying bicycler:
just a random sketch out to wonder is it possible?
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